vow

last night was horrifying. i had a very very terrible, disturbing nightmare that i never wanted to come across again,  EVER. twas so disturbing that i keep on praying to God to never let me have that nightmare ever again. it made me cry and crash, and all my strength seemed like leaving me without any sympathy. if it's real, i think i have already died. thank God, really really thankful to God, that when i opened my eyes from that freaking nightmare the morning after, still shaky from the horrible incident i just had in that dream, i eventually felt relieved instantly, and i gained back the strength to smile and shake off the horrible feelings from my head, simply because when my nightmare seemed to pull me into the darkness, i was pulled back into reality, by my dear man, my only everything, he made everything turned fine, and he magically washed away all my fear from the nightmare. that nightmare was so horrible, but thank God i was able to open my eyes to see him, and just by that, everything becomes calm and safe from any misery, i felt very very safe and i could curl like a cat, protected by him.

thank you Allah, for bestowing me with this priceless gift, mohamad nazrin abu bakar. and thank you dear, for being the 'life' in me. you are everything, buried inside me and will i keep inside, because dear, you are the reason im alive. Lillah, i love you only, and that is forever, no matter what happens, no matter how the world go against me, that's my vow.