deep sadness.

mama is in hospital.
had just undergone her operation last tuesday.
she's still very weak and cannot move around like she always did.
not her typical self.
somehow her condition moved me a lot.
im moved because of her determination.
idk.
she's so strong yet so weak.
i used to be so ego that i rarely show my true feelings towards mama.
i used to be so still inside out that it's hard for me to show that im still her little annoying daughter.
now that she's in the hospital,
seeing her lying on bed and sometimes moving her body with difficulties,
had made me cry very hard.
i dont know how to describe the feelings.
utter sadness n deep sorrow.
ma,get well soon.
:'(